It was just another story written on the second page Underneath the Tiger's football score It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age They found him face down on the bedroom floor There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all Is better than the life that you had How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go How do you get that lonely... and nobody know Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun? Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol? Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son? Did no one see the writing on the wall? I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all Is better than the life that you had How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go How do you get that lonely... and nobody know It was just another story printed on the second page Underneath the Tiger's football score... *I often find myself wondering how nobody can notice when we get that lonely. People say we're selfish, but you try feeling like you're all alone and like people don't care about you. You try feeling unloved about three quarters of the time. I've been abused, never physically, but mentally and emotionally, and sometimes that's just as bad as physicall abuse. It leads you to not so pleasent thoughts and to unwanted feelings that you are not worthy of life. I have felt this way and I still do now, and its going to be the end of me one of these days. I have nobody to talk to and nobody to help me, and I feel so lost and unwanted. I'm being torn between the life that everyone thinks that I live and the life that is really there. I'm losing my best-friend in the whole goddamn world due to no fault of my own and I miss him already. And although we've been through a lot he's the greatest thing that's ever happened to me and I love him with all my heart and soul. Nobody can ever take his place, and my God or whoever you believe in as your higher power, protect the said person that is coming between us. He thinks his fault and I have to say this now, that is isn't. I hate that said person thinks that they can tear us apart. They might be successful, but if they are then they are and there is nothing I can do to change how said person feels.* My rant is done! Brett, If you read this, don't believe it for a second. Its not ture. You have done nothing wrong to make me be mad at you. I'm mad at life and about everyone else in it. I love you with all my heart and soul. It isn't you!!!!!! Please forgive me for what I have done, just know that though I may not trust you fully (due to no fault of your own) that you are one of the most important people to me. Just know that, and if said person should happen to tear us apart then remember that I am always here for you whenever you may need me. I love you. Don't ever forget that. Brittany