this was Heather and I last nite... GOD was I pissed... and her too... NCISchick08: hey detectivezim: hey NCISchick08: wut's up? detectivezim: i'm so upset NCISchick08: why? detectivezim: the puppy pulled my sewing apart that me and my mom did when i was really little and it meant a lot to me and now it's just a pile of yarn NCISchick08: way to go stupid puppy detectivezim: and she broke a pot that had a cactus in it that i got from these people and i havent seen them in a long time and that's all i have to remember them by and the stupid dog tore the dirt all out and now my floor is covored in it and the cactus is dead almost NCISchick08: stupid dog NCISchick08: kick her out detectivezim: god i hate this detectivezim: she isn't coming in my room anymore NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: so next to that how are ya? detectivezim: i'm in pain from being at KD all day and my ears hurt because we went to a rock concert and it was really loud..... detectivezim: you? NCISchick08: not bad... slept all day and then watched Gilmore Girls... and then I was supposed to get in the pool but my drunken asshole father came home and slept all afternoon after he had already left for work late... come home... and spent all day yesterday sleeping... NCISchick08: took a walk and now I'm making icons and watching Jake detectivezim: drunken? from work? NCISchick08: nope... he was drunk last nite and Friday nite... he drank a whole bottle of wine in one sitting last nite... NCISchick08: by his self detectivezim: i'm sorry... i'm always looking for someone with an alcoholic parent to sympathize with NCISchick08: lol... same here... he's such an ass NCISchick08: and then he gets mad at me for nothing... he hasn't talked to me since yesterday morning detectivezim: stop it while you still can detectivezim: it's the mid life crisis detectivezim: idk dont ask me i'm all messed up NCISchick08: i wish... i just stay out of his way... i lock myself in my room and blare really depressing music detectivezim: wow me too detectivezim: wow NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: and watch Jake and CSI and Mi NCISchick08: and write... u wonder how I write so much... detectivezim: i do everything exept MI and jake and i also burn incense NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: i couldn't live without being able to lock myself in here NCISchick08: and at night I sneak out of my window and sit on our porch for hours at a time detectivezim: i should do that NCISchick08 wants to directly connect. detectivezim is now directly connected. detectivezim: i used to sneak out and walk down the street for hours NCISchick08: lol... i would do that but with my luck some one would see me detectivezim: i always tried to run away but i always came back when i got hungry NCISchick08: check out my new icon detectivezim: al l i would have to do now is sneak through the woods NCISchick08: lol... same here... but I have no where to go detectivezim: awsome NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: NCISchick08: NCISchick08: those too detectivezim: aww NCISchick08: i've been so fucking bored NCISchick08: did u see the NCIS ones I made? detectivezim: yep NCISchick08: all of them? detectivezim: i think so NCISchick08: NCISchick08: detectivezim: yep detectivezim: i saw th 2nd one NCISchick08: these aren't made by me but they're awsome detectivezim: i LOVE the first one NCISchick08: of course detectivezim: i detectivezim: m eating chocolate NCISchick08: nice NCISchick08: i had gushers because it was the only thing that didn't need to be microwaved... and now I'm scared to leave my room detectivezim: me too detectivezim: i feel sick detectivezim: it's my luck that the dog had to destroy the most valuable thing in my room NCISchick08: lol... that sucks... BIG HUG detectivezim: thanx NCISchick08: no problem detectivezim: thos sucks detectivezim: this* NCISchick08: i kno detectivezim: *sniffle* detectivezim: the idiots next door hooked up a bug light in their back yard and now i can hear all the bugs getting zapped to infinity and it's really annoying NCISchick08: nice detectivezim: *sigh* NCISchick08: i found the song that describes me and how i feel 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. Lyrics: 1 - Memory by Sugarcult… 2 - Somebody Else by Blue… 3 - Don't Worry About A Thing by SheDaisy… 4 - Harder to Breathe by Maroon 5… 5 and 6 - none… 7 - The Reason by Hoobastank NCISchick08: ignore that NCISchick08: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/v/various-artists/143793.html NCISchick08: that's the address detectivezim: i'm soffocating in smoke NCISchick08: nice detectivezim: have you ever heard whisky luluby? NCISchick08: oh yeh NCISchick08: I love that song detectivezim: me too NCISchick08: :- detectivezim: :'( NCISchick08: yeh same here NCISchick08: tell me what u think this means NCISchick08: It kills me too think that one day none of this will matter anymore, Cause in life pain and death are all thats real, So let's try to steal the time we have left, It could be over tonight 'cause the timming has never felt so right detectivezim: idk NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: no one does detectivezim: there are like 50 popups on my computer that are frozen there. NCISchick08: nice detectivezim: arrrgh NCISchick08: i hate popups detectivezim: one day i'm going to get the sledgehammer and smash the shit out of this thing NCISchick08: nice... not anytime soon NCISchick08: ur my only connection to the outside worls NCISchick08: world detectivezim: ok..... NCISchick08: yeh detectivezim: i wont then NCISchick08: well ur the only one that talks to me except for my writing partner detectivezim: :'( NCISchick08: ur my only REAL friend... except for Lane and Salem... but there to lazy to get on detectivezim: my birthday is in 13 days and my dad and brother are throwing a party for me but i only have 3 friends that would ever bother to come to a party at my house. but no matter how much i beg for them not to give me a party they still want to do it NCISchick08: aww... I'll of course come detectivezim: i kno NCISchick08: and I'll invite u to mine if I ever have one... my mom's boss put his two week notice in a week agao and so my mom has to work every weekend until like Christmas detectivezim: then there's karen, and all she does is sit at home eating rice all day, and amanda, who is reaally starting to drive me crazy with her 8th grade problems NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: tell them u don't want a party then NCISchick08: we could just hang-out detectivezim: yeah NCISchick08: i wish my parents would throw me a party... they haven't thrown one for me since I was like 8 NCISchick08: I've had to create my own party and decide everything for myself... they didn't even do anything when I turned 13... detectivezim: i haven't had one since i was 8 either but this year he's just doing it to torture me NCISchick08: we go out to dinner with my family and stuff but they never let me have friends over or anything detectivezim: on the 7th stacy is having a party at our house even though it has nothing to do with us.... i guess she just likes our yard.... which is strange detectivezim: anyway i'm putting a deadbolt on my door and locking myself in NCISchick08: my mom was like... well, when u turn 16 we'll thru u a party... yeah rite... their idea of a party is none of my stupid friends, no loud music, little or no food... and for my dad... lots of beer detectivezim: you kno i don't even have a lock on my door. it will literally open if you blow on it detectivezim: at least your parents don;t go way overboard like my dad does NCISchick08: I have a lock on mine because if I didn't my parents would barge in whenever they want... like if I don't lock it because I'm doing homework and stuff... they don't knock they just open it detectivezim: it takes us weeks just to put everything away NCISchick08: I'd rather have them go overboard and actually pay attention to me and my feelings then for them to just blow me off like I don't exist NCISchick08: I mean... I get that enough from my supposed friends and from my teachers... then they have to do it... detectivezim: i HATE that!!!!!! my brother walks in all the time on me when im changing and stuff and i have to dive to the floor. this morning he came in and i ran behind my bed and screamed "get out" and he took his time looking through my fucking drawers for HIS shirt NCISchick08: nice NCISchick08: I change in my bathroom because of that... so I don't get to try different things on... that's why when I go to skool most of the time I just throw things on NCISchick08: and u can tell too... I try to spend as little time as possible out in the open here detectivezim: when i was grounded my dad accually banned me from my room. i couldn't even do laundry. and then he came in here and took my internet antenna thingy and hid it under the couch and the antenna broke off. that;s probably why everything froze up NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: nice NCISchick08: sorry... but that's funny... that he tried to hide it under the couch detectivezim: arrrgh detectivezim: he b;amed me that it was broken too detectivezim: blamed* NCISchick08: nice NCISchick08: ass hole... sounds like what my dad would do detectivezim: they're idiots NCISchick08: lol detectivezim: my dad has always been a really immature guy. he always finds a way to ruin everything NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: my dad just hates to see me happy... that's about it detectivezim: half the time i have to tell him not to do stuff, like buy $3,000 TV's when we can't even afford basic stuff NCISchick08: my mom is the exact opposite but she's scared of my dad... I think that's why she never does anything... NCISchick08: lol detectivezim: yeah... NCISchick08: my dad is the same way... like he goes out and spends money on all this beer and shit and yet he yells us my mom when she buys food and stuff detectivezim: idk i'm in a really bad mood right now. i need to take a shower. are you going to still be on in 20 min? NCISchick08: yeh detectivezim: ok NCISchick08: i won' NCISchick08: i won't leave until 12 detectivezim: brb NCISchick08: because I have to be up by 10 or my dad is going to take the internet away because I slept late today because I didn't feel well NCISchick08: ok detectivezim: back NCISchick08: koolio detectivezim: i didn't even put conditioner in NCISchick08: lol detectivezim: i'm just glad i smell like flowers and not chlorine NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: i smell like popcorn and my disgusting room detectivezim: our dads are so much alike detectivezim: you need incense NCISchick08: lol... I would get grounded for it detectivezim: not if it doesn't look satanic. i put it in a candlestic NCISchick08: lol... they would knoe... and with my luck i would burn the house down detectivezim: lol detectivezim: my dad always lights it for me because he doesn't like us using lighters detectivezim: my brother takes the safety switch out of lighters so they burn 6 inches high NCISchick08: nice detectivezim: yeah it's kool detectivezim: do you ever break out on the backs of your arms? NCISchick08: and everybody wonders why I want to go to skool far away from home and get a job that makes me work extremly long hours... to stay away from this place... and these people... NCISchick08: probably detectivezim: i've broken out bad.... detectivezim: yeah.... so are you still interested in homeland S? NCISchick08: hell yes NCISchick08: dangerous and out of the country kind of stuff... NCISchick08: this is the coolest song in the world... http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/tonic/doyouknow.html detectivezim: lol... i'm doing forensics, and if i'm not smart enough for that i'll be a detective NCISchick08: lol... u definately will be smart enough... me on the other hand... never gonna happen... but I can always dream NCISchick08: u have a chance... trust me detectivezim: lol... i hope so... NCISchick08: u will... don't worry detectivezim: i think it'll be easier since i'm so obsessed with it NCISchick08: lol detectivezim: yep NCISchick08: u have better luck than I do detectivezim: hell no detectivezim: i am cursed to the core detectivezim: but i'll try NCISchick08: well its better then me NCISchick08: detectivezim: nice NCISchick08: yeh NCISchick08: i know the feeling... detectivezim: a guy broke my heart last year.... REALLY broke it. i promised myself i'd never let that happen again NCISchick08: I've never been able to trust guys... not that I have to worry about it... or ever will have to worry about it detectivezim: y not? NCISchick08: y not what? detectivezim: y wont you have to worry about it? detectivezim: i'm just thinking that your saying that no guy would ever like you and that's not true NCISchick08: because I just won't... remember... the further reference thing... NCISchick08: that too... detectivezim: yeah... NCISchick08: and what u said too NCISchick08: never gonna happen... I've learned my lesson NCISchick08: and I know better by know anywyas detectivezim: yeah me too NCISchick08: i'm probably the only 15 year old girl who has never had a boyfriend or a guy have a crush on her detectivezim: hey at least your not short NCISchick08: so... that has nothing to do with anything... detectivezim: yeah i get told all the time that no guy wants to date a "midget" NCISchick08: your not a midget... detectivezim: i kno NCISchick08: what no guy wants is to date a music obsessed, depressed and not friendly girl detectivezim: that's my other problem: being mean NCISchick08: ur not mean... u just don't like being bothered NCISchick08: I'm mean detectivezim: no ur not detectivezim: your nice to your friends NCISchick08: every guy that I ever met besides Lane, Salem, Daniel, and my brother say that detectivezim: i get all kinds of reasons NCISchick08: i don NCISchick08: i don't even get reasons... which is worse detectivezim: it's ok...hug detectivezim: can you post this on ur sitdiary? my computer is so frozen tat i can't go to my site NCISchick08: thanx... sure NCISchick08: when we're done detectivezim: we have 6 min. until 12 NCISchick08: http://www.sitdiary.net/navybrat08/ NCISchick08: try mine detectivezim: nope detectivezim: just another frozen window detectivezim: the bug light is driving me crazy NCISchick08: lol NCISchick08: :'( NCISchick08: :'( detectivezim: :-( detectivezim: *yawn* detectivezim: i've had a loooooooong day NCISchick08: lol... at least u had a day NCISchick08: http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/blainelarsen/howdoyougetthatlonely.html detectivezim: i cant go to the site, remember? NCISchick08: oh yeh NCISchick08: "How Do You Get That Lonely" It was just another story written on the second page Underneath the Tiger's football score It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age They found him face down on his bedroom floor There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all Is better than the life that you had How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun? Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol? Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son? Did no one see the writing on the wall? I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand... How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all Is better than the life that you had How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows It was just another story printed on the second page Underneath the Tiger's football score... NCISchick08: this is like my favorite song NCISchick08: it asks the question that I want to know more than anything NCISchick08: 'Did no one see the writing on the wall?' and 'How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows' detectivezim: she put him out detectivezim: like the burning end of a midnight cigarette detectivezim: she broke his heart detectivezim: i love THAT song NCISchick08: yeh... me too... detectivezim: 12:01 NCISchick08: well... I gotta go cry myself to sleep now... if I'm not up by 10 I won't be on-line for like a month... and if that happens then I will probably fucking die... because I will have no contact with anyone outside of this house... and I'll probably be banned from helping move my aunt to VA Beach... detectivezim: set an alarm NCISchick08: I know... I'll be on tonite if I'm not grounded... now I'm going to go take like half a dozen pain killers for my fucking knee and cry myself to sleep... NCISchick08: nite detectivezim: not that many detectivezim: !!! detectivezim: ok nite NCISchick08: whatever works... its been killing me all day detectivezim: take one NCISchick08: and I can't complain because my mom won't take me back detectivezim: oh NCISchick08: since the doc said nothing is wrong with it she believes him... she wouldn't even have x-rays done on it or anything detectivezim: my best friend died from pain pills NCISchick08: all he did was bend it a little and then started messing with it so bad that I almost cried NCISchick08: I surely won't overdose on them... no gurantee that u will die detectivezim: ok detectivezim: post this or save it or something so i can put it on my site tomorrow NCISchick08: I'll just take enough to make the pain stop and to help me sleep some... maybe... we'll see... I'll get so tired from crying that I'll probably pass out NCISchick08: ok... I'll post it NCISchick08: nite detectivezim: hug NCISchick08: thnax detectivezim: nite -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Auto response from NCISchick08: It kills me too think that one day none of this will matter anymore, Cause in life pain and death are all thats real, So let's try to steal the time we have left, It could be over tonight 'cause the timming has never felt so right there is officially no one who cares what happens to me... detectivezim take ur shit somewhere else... cell's good only is its necessary -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- detectivezim: thanks for the note... i will detectivezim: adios NCISchick08: sorry NCISchick08: wrong one detectivezim: *sniffle NCISchick08: its from the idiots that were bothering me last nite NCISchick08: I need to change it now detectivezim: ok NCISchick08: nite detectivezim: nite -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Auto response from NCISchick08: Maybe I was too much, Maybe I'll take it down a notch, Maybe I'll have the guts to go mad, Maybe I'll mess me up real bad, Maybe I'll make you wish you had the old me back - Why can't I be somebody else? Somebody who isn't too cool to believe it's okay to be just me ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ so... bored as hell... Syd: IM ME NOW!!! cell's good or leave me one... :-) --------------------------------------------------------------------------------