yeah i just got home from bens house. it was alright i guess. all we did was sit around and watch tv. but the thing that aggravated me was that this "Brandi" was Bens goddamned girlfriend. they were sitting there on the futon and was being all lovey dovey and then they eventually left the room and didnt come back until i had to leave. it was very awkward. but im so sick of this. now im just waiting for him to cancel prom on me. ugh!! i feel so lonely. im never gonna find any one. ill be really old if i ever go on a date. ugh ive never wanted to die more than ever!!