i am extremely sad right now...i feel like im a dissappointment to sean...he talked to me today aboutt he whole money thing and he said"i wish you would come to me first" i wish he'd understand its really hard for me to tell him about stuff like that that bothers me...im scared he mite leave...im scared sumthing may happen...and then i wonder why he loves me...ive got soo many issues...especially in communitive actions...i cant face my problems face to face. i have to go around it by talkin to others...like i had to talk to ben about my issues with sean...i couldnt ever tell sean directly about that...