im sitting here wondering...why i am still here..i dont belong any where i go..i try to explain to people how im feeling but they just seem to really understand..if only they new me back in jr high then maybe theyd get an idea...i really wanna dissappear..i shouldnt be here any more..honestly... the one person that i like and he liked me back is trying to avoid me i think..it makes me sad..he treated me so well..ive never been treated like the way he treated me..i miss it and now i feel so alone...