well went over bens house (again) on saturday. it was wickedx awesome cuz ehem i wont name her wasnt there but... anyways so i met this kid John omg he was wicked awesome! he watched me make a fool of myself on his skateboard...the funny thing is that i really didnt care when i was with him. too bad he's got a gf. but yeah we played ps2 together and had lots of fun burning things and he and everyone who was outside with us began making fun of me cuz my hand was shaking a lot when i had the lighter. they kept calling me a pyro. it was wicked funny. but...after nine oclock when John left (Bens gf was there) it went downhill. i was fine for awhile but i guess with my friend jen with her bf and ben and his gf it just got to me after john left. so i got wicked depressed and my head felt like it was going to explode and so to focus on sumthing else i started to prick myself with a pin to not focus on the couples and stuff...i told my friend that last nite when i got home and she flipped out on me. it was cool cuz it just made me feel worse.