its certainly been awhile! life has been a living hell for me every since sean has found a new gf......i mean i was the one that broke up with him a yr ago in june......but i really didnt want to but people told me it was for the best.....so i did....and then we became friends with benefits later on...and well i wouldnt have done that if i didnt want to get back with him.....and then he had to break the news that he found a gf.....i was soo crushed....its been soo fucking hard.....it hurt alot to find out that they pretty much started going out the same time we did...its just i miss him....i barly see him any more and he is one of my best friends...and well i dont wanna lose him even as a friend....but i feel like i am.....idk im just soo fucking lonley now....... good news tho......ive heard from ian!!! its been soo fucking loong!! and i have been thinking about him alot!