wtf! im talking to ben right now...but it feels soo awkward! why? im supposed to be over him! dont tell me i still got feelings for him! thats probably what he wants. but i found ian who actually treats me so much better and makes me feel special? goddamit! fuck! its late and thats probably with this whole moood swing...but still...why am i fucking pissed off?? omg...im gonna go fucking kill myself soon! ugh! too much stress...too much questioning....too much everything!!!!