Ive decided to talk to my friend ben and tell him how i feel about being used and how i felt that nite i was over his house. he knows that ive been looking for a boyfriend and yet he decided to show off his goddamned girlfriend by flirting and hugging and leaving the room to go make out with his girlfriend. he made me feel like shit that nite. he's done a lot of things that made me feel like shit but ive never talked to him about hopefully he'll come online soon so i can get this out of my system. this really sucks!