every night b4 i go to bed i pray...i no thats weird for me..but i pray that i dont wake up the next morening..i pray to escape all this misery..i pray that i cant escape all this pain...i honestly cannot take any more of this...im so fuck,ing lonely and depressed that its not even funny any more (not that it was b4) lately when im at working i constantly wish i wasdead...i just cant stand people any more...i feel used by my closest friends...i feel like im not really their friends just there...u no..just a joke to them...maybe thats what i am in this world...just a joke to everyone...no one would really care if i was gone..if so they wouldnt mourn for very long...give it 5 minutes they'll move one...plus...im a nuthing in life...u no what i mean? im not going any where..whats the point in waiting....why not leave now?