i need something to numb this pain
something to make me feel worthwhile in this world
something to help me believe the things you say
sometimes it hurts when i look at you
and think im monly here for pleasure and money
i know i shouldnt feel this way
but im so used to being hurt
all the time i wonder what you see in me
for months i havent been able to do stuff i used to do
before the weekend even starts im flat broke
paying for you and for me
im having money issues,
i cant afford this
everyday every weekend
ive been thinking about a second job
yet, im still in high school
yeah ive been having alot of issues lately...theyre mostly the same ones...u no..i pay for everything...i havent been able to really buy myself anything besides stuff from marshalls...i havent been able to go to the mall to just walk aruond and enjoy the atmosphere...ive been just paying for sean..for just about eevrything...b4 i met him i was having difficulty with money...but now its just worse...i really cant take it any more...i have trouble saying no...and i think he's taking advantage of that... i havent felt this misrable since b4 i met sean...hopefully friday i can have a day to myself and go to the mall with ashley...and make up for the loss time at the mall and buy myself stuff...the thing that also bugs me is that duringxmas...i had used my own gift card to a store to buy him a sweatshirt that he was admiring...my own fucking gift card...and what have i got from him? just a deck of edward scissorhands cards...and that sweatshirt ($22) wasnt eevn his xmas gift...im sooo fucking depressed right now.....
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