yeah well its obviously thanksgiving. so much fun *sarcasm*. ugh! im so bored!! yeah i found another one of my poems i wrote awhile ago. wow im such a loser. ugh! and i just realized my first entry wasnt deleted and that my computer was messing with my head. thats so not cool! my goal in life is to become the enxt Emily dickinson. haha it wont happen. but the thing i want the most was a boyfriend but thats not going to happen any time soon. ugh! i feel so unloved!!! I wake up ready for another misrable day I get dressed and step outside walking down the main street I see Him Time seems to stop I glance at the girl he's with She's much prettier than me I walk by without a word The awkwardness is too uncomfortable I realized i never had a chance He'll never know how i feel My friends tell me he's not worth all this pain But i feel he is worth all this pain It hurts alot As i walk by a tear falls I dont understand why it hurts Ive been told to forget about him But its too hard Im lost, i dont no where im going I realized how much i used to fear the end of the world But now i stand here waiting I cant take this pain any more I dont think ill ever be able to move on Theres sumthing about him i can never forget maybe its his craziness maybe its his humor I'll never know All i know is I havent found it in any other guy They tell me I'll find some one someday But when will that someday be? Now? Tomorrow? Never? I remember all the memories of him Will it ever feel the same or will that starnge awkwardness be there? I know he knows BUt that doesnt stop my desire for him I go back hom realizing how life sucks I crawl into bed hoping today was only A dream