i swear to god next year im gonna have a total melt down...fuck...i cant stand anything any more...what the hell is wrong with me? why cant i be fucking normal??? jesus christ...i cant even listen to music any more with out thinking of killing myself...especially at work..if uve listened to the music they play...ull understand... u no...just for one...just once...i would like to be asked to a dance...i no thats random...but just once i want that to happen...but i guess i should keep dreaming, huh? goddammit...im sick of being a loser...but i cant really do anything about it...fuck..i really dont belong here... i just wanna ranaway from all this pain..everything around me is what is killing me inside...