god...last nite was horrible....i was alright up until seans friends came...so we're all in the car, me sean, david and john and well sum one brought up the subject of sex...and someone mentioned he got laid the past 7 days....this is what made me have a nervoius breakdown for the rest of the nite...i felt like i wasnt enough for sean...seans response was my sex life is not on trial...i wasnt quite shure what that meant...but that threw me off the whole nite...to a point where i just felt like i wasnt worht anything and wanted to die...when we were driving david home i kinda pulled out in front of this car like 15 ft as it sped down the street...god how i wish it hit me...my side of the car...