im tired of this...everyone like flips out on me saying...oh u think u have it hard at home when u really dont...but they dont fucking understand...they dont live with me so the would no a goddamned thing what was going on...yeah today at lunch...my friend..im not even sure if she is my friend..amelia like flipped out on me cuz i was saying how much i hoped my mom would die and stuff...it pissed me off so much! i dont even no why i hang out with them...it seems like im not even their friend...well thats atleast how i feel...i cant really explain why tho...i sit at the lunch table with them and rhiannon but i just seem like i dont really belong there i keep telling myself im not gonna sit with them any more...but i no some one will yell at me.. thats all that seems like that goes on in my life...people including sum of my best friends just yelling at me for decisions i make...its not their goddamned decisions...why cant they just leave me alone???