Why is this happening? I can hear them fighting. Yelling. Screaming. I hate to see her cry. I hate to see him cry. But I know that he's to blame. It's so unfair. My mother is the best woman I know. She is amazing in all sense of the word. She cares for people, and she has the biggest heart. To see my father slander her to people, to break her down and cause her pain astounds me. That someone can do that to ANYONE they say that they love...makes little sense. I have never truly been taught how to love a significant other, or to be affectionate towards a sgnificant other because I have never had the best example, but I blame my father for that.. I think theyre getting a divorce. My world is upside down. Too many things have happened. I miss him, and I love him. Everytime I hear a love song he pops into my head. He is still the main thought in my head throughout the day, and the last thing I think about when I go to sleep. He makes me cry, but he also makes my heart swell. I dont understand why mu desicion is so hard..but I guess Im just afraid. Im afraid of things going back to how they use to be. Im afraid of being unhappy again. Im just afraid. It's even harder now that I've had the taste of being single. The taste is so appealing. I find myself wanting it to last for a long while... I dont know. I just dont know. I wish I could disappear. Or change my identity. I wish nothing was expected of me. Or that I atleast knew what I wanted.