Sometimes I still feel like this is all a dream. Like Im walking in some enchanted wood, riding a train of thought, in to the unknown parts of my mind. I can trsut in myself, right? I can trust that things wont change, right? Sometimes I need to allow myself to believe that: the good guys do win, even if they dont always succeed the first time. You can end up with your highschool/teenage boyfriend forever. Because thats what I want more than anything. Sometimes..you have to fight. I think that things have been so exciting and active lately, that none of us have stopped to catch our breaths. So, instead, we're fighting, and shouting, and losing sight of whats up ahead in the road. Some friends I havent seen in so many weeks. Others I see every single day. Admitted, I get annoyed and excited, and easily scared but in the grand scheme of things I just dont want to let go of anyone. Honest. I look back, and I think what i always said this would be like, and the outcome is so very different than what i imagined. I was a dreamer, and I still am. And I wont stop believing that the pieces will fall right back in to their place. These shapes were made for me, and though I try to jam them in to a square shaped peg, theyre always going to fit just perfectly in to my heart shaped spot. I cant explain any of this. I dont even remotely know what to say to explain this entry. Everyone needs to find themselves. I feel like Ive found some of me, not ALL, but some. And I know who i want to spend my life with. But more importantly, I know who i want to surround myself with for the rest of my life. Its summer. Im going to have fun, now.