You're making me feel all these weird, and unusual things before. Ive never wanted to be single, or free. But with the way you act, and the things you do, this last chance is turning into a failure. It shouldnt be this hard. Stuff like this should come naturally to you, Chris. And if it cant, then I dont think I should be wasting my time waiting around for you to grow up. Or to realize. I love you so much. And Im in a situation where its break up, feel relieved, but never be friends again. Or stay together, self destruct, and divorce in the future.

I dont want to feel this way. I can vaguely remember what it felt like to be with you, and be happy, and never want anyone else. And now Im doubting myself, and my feelings, and my actions. Im doubting my ability to be faithful, and to continue on this road.

Wasnt this supposed to make things better?

Tracy Chapman had the right idea.

I have a fast car, and I know it could take me miles away from everything. Leave tonight, or die this way...