I wish you could see yourself, in action.

I wish you could see how truly frustrating you are

I wish you could see how much little things like this effect me

I wish you fought harder

Im sorry for the times I use the situation against you. Youve done amazing so far. I can pinpoint the progress, and I can see the results. Things arent always going to change in the span of a week, I need to keep reminding myself of that. We will always have bumps in the road.

Its hard. I am trying so hard to fix the things I do that cause fights, and at the same time, Ive tried to be understanding of your long job, and exhausting hours. I have worked so hard for you to be happy, but your increasing amount of stress and lack of control with your anger causes me to walk on egg shells with you. I feel like I cant say one thing wrong without you snapping and getting defensive. Its unfair. Im hearing you out, and being understanding, so please, just all i ask is that you do the same for me. This didnt even have to happen tonight. Or at all. Neither did yesterdays fight. This just shows that we need to go about things in a different manner or style. Im sorry youre tired. Im sorry youre exhausted. Tell me what you need and Ill try to do it. But dont push me away with your stress. I dont like sleeping without you. Dont make me, anymore.

Though if one good thing came out of this fight its being with my mom. The comfort of knowing shes right next to my room, only a few steps away, is nice. Knowing shes not in a big house all alone, is comforting. And knowing shell be so happy to known i slept at home makes me happy. I miss her.

I need positivity. Things are going to be ok....they always are.