Sometimes, you can be so irrational. And most importantly: RIDICULOUS. I spent this whole day working my ASS off while you went and spent all your money on something you were " DYING" to do. You barely texted me. Didnt even leave me a voicemail like you said you would. And didnt even curteously check in with me because you were too busy. YOU HAD ME BUY YOU CIGARETTES YESTERDAY BECAUSE YOU WERE SPENDING ALL YOU HAD ON YOUR TICKET. you had me buy you FOOD. and made me bring you, INCONVENIENTALLY, all the way too OOB!!! Just to drive all the way back home after! And THEN! AFTER you got everything YOUR way. LIKE ALWAYS. You had your day of fun. Because I wasnt going to see you today, or, until tomorrow, Nick and I made plans. Because, AS YOU KNOW, Nick is my best friend and that is generally the person I, and you, aswell, spend all your time with!!! AND THEN, your plans changed and NO ONE could drive you home. so you told me I HAD TO GET YOU. And then, when you found out that i was sleeping over nicks you TRIED TO MAKE ME CHOOSE WHO WAS MORE IMPORTANT, AND WHERE I WOULD SPEND MY NIGHT. Its simple. i made plans because you werent going to be here. i cannot just ditch my plans just because yours changed. HOW UNFAIR CAN YOU BE, CHRIS? How irrational? AND YET, I STILL PICKED YOU UP. ONLY TO BE TREATED LIKE GARBAGE ALL THE WAY HOME. YOU WOULDNT HUG ME, KISS ME, OR TELL ME YOU LOVED ME. YOU WOULDNT HOLD MY HAND, BUT MORE IMPORTANTLY, YOU MADE ME FEEL AS IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG. how dare you??? YOU KNOW WHAT? i am so proud of myself that i didnt explode on you like i wished i could. I am changing, and I am holding myself back. AND IM SO FUCKING PROUD THAT I WAS THE MATURE, AND CALM AND COLLECTED ONE.

I wish you could see how much of a baby you are being. you treated me like shit tonight. i hope youre happy. i still love you, but this has gotta stop. throwing temper tantrums at the age of 19 is very becoming. i AM NOT choosing nick over you. but i am being a curteous and fair friend. You wouldnt bail on your friends if my plans changed so why should i be MADE to feel like I ALWAYS have to do that. Things are always so different and im tired of being bossed around and guilt tripped into thinking the world revolved around you.

GODDAMN. Get a FUCKING GRIP, kid.