I cant even read the last couple of entries without my head hurting, and throbbing, and getting ready to explode. I have never felt so high, and then so low in the span of days, and months, or even weeks. Im confused. and Im frustrated. Im mad, and Im sad. Im ecstatic, and Im disgusted. I hate everything, and I love it all just the same.

EVERYONE NEEDS TO GO AWAY. Give me my space. Let me breath.

I like this boy way too much and hes too scared to make that move that I so desperately want from him. And i dont even know if its that hes too scared to make the move because hes made lots of them. and thats whats fucking with my head. because im a dumb girl. and im attatched for no goddamn reason.

chris needs to die already, on a terrible and hurtful note. So doesnt jesse. And thats probably the worst thing I will open my mouth and say about this situation. and its hard for me to even be empathetic to the situation anymore. or about the fact that i siad one of the most terrible things.

fuck it. i just took my first oxy, and I just want to get rid of this head ache and eat some oreos dipped in peanutbutter.

I feel like this is the only place where I can truly say this without sounding hungry for attention, or conceited, but there are far too many boys on my jock right now and its stressing me out. Girls who think its fun to be wanted by everyone have another thing coming. it sucks. and i just want to be left alone

everyone is always monitoring my next move. or motive. everyone wants to know my thoughts, plans, feelings, desires...i couldnt even tell you to be honest. I just want to go far away and lay in the sun for a week at a time, and bake until im a nice brown color.

can't wait to pack up and run away.