Damn the curses of a female body. Im feeling a wave of change coming. Maybe its because Summer is so close I can taste it. Or maybe its because my high school career is coming to a close, next friday. Or maybe its because I just want to be different. I want to be better. Stronger Nicer More alive More aware Ive always been here, I just seem so far away. But your presence in my life has always meant as much as it use to. Im really scared. Im becoming a big girl, now. A grown up. And with that comes responsibilities, and feelings. Lessons, and learning. I hope I can do this. Im in love. For real. And I cant shake these butterflies.