I dont want to let him go! I dont want him to leave. How can I sleep if he is not by my side? Who will I hold, and comfort, and take care of? Im attached. Its as if hes my child. My little piece of sun and joy. I miss him already, and hes still in the other room napping. I cant handle this. I dont want to put him down. I dont want him to be in pain, but.. I dont want him to leave me. Silly as it seems, hes like the love of my life. Hes always been there. Always cheered me up. He may dirty my room, and awake me in the night. But countless times hes redeemed himself with kisses, and cuddles. My life wont ever be the same without him. I cant bear the thought of today. Only a few hours...and he'll be gone. Why does this have to happen? He's going to be there tomorrow. And Im going to see him. And Im scared. Really scared. You dont like talking bad? HA! Youve been doing it for quite some time now. Sometimes I wish you didnt think you were so gaddamn nice.