Day two of being back from New York. As much as I hated tearing myself away from my wonderful boyfriend, and my wonderful friends, New York was fairly eye-opening. I guess, in a way, Ive always been close-minded about my family. I love them to death, obviously, but Ive always been bothered by their pre-judgments, and "know-it-all" mentality. I guess, Ive just never really felt understood by them. But this week was special. As I watched all my cousins, aunts, and uncles tell stories about their pasts, I realized that I take everyone for granted. They cried talking about things they remembered years and years ago. I smiled watching them, recalling my own memories. Even though I hate how old-fashioned, ignorant, and rude they can be. I realized that if they werent around, Id hate that alot more than having to deal with their nagging constantly. _____ I watched a fucked up movie tonight. And I dont think Ive freaked out half as much about anything ever than when Chris simply sid, "Goodnight, baby. Be careful..." and i freaked the fuck out. Yeah, never watch the movie "Inside". It was banned for a reason... _____ I cant wait to move in with you Baby Boy. Honestly, Im so prepared to fill every day completely with your loving presence. <3 Like I already do.