Im in love with him. I am I am I am. ___ Sometimes I wish It were entirely possible to just tell her, "I know." "I know whats going on, and whats happening." Im not dumb, but Im also not the least bit interested. I have learned a long time ago that double-standards occupy almost every aspect of relationships. "I feel uncomfortable when you're friends with my friends." "I feel weird when you text my ex-boyfriend" I wish It was entirely possible to say "Youre a hypocrite" to her face. Because its true. And I dont like him. And I sure as hell dont care about her anymore. But I still find it funny that it was such a big deal when she wasnt in the shoes that I was once in. Now that she sees it as I use to, its so very different. She told Nick she wasnt going to say anything, or to not tell me because "Id bring it up and be a bitch about it." Why? Because you realize you're a hypocrite? Because you remember the conversation we had a year ago where we stated "BEST friends never date other friends ex's? Its a girls unspoken code." Because you remember how we PROMISED we'd never, ever in a million years date anyone eachothers already dated? Im laughing while I write this entry, because, I dont even care. I just think shes all to hypocritically amusing.