Someone, Please. Tell me why I still feel this way? God, I fucking hate myself for that. For every glance in his direction. For every bit of eye contact made. I shook. And I trembled. And I felt so intimidated. And I MISSED IT. I missed all those times!! WHY? WHY DO I MISS IT? WHY DOES IT STILL BOTHER ME? Why cant I forget him the way he forgot me? Because he has me. The biggest part of me. I wish I could steal it back. I wish I could forget. I wish I could not care so much. I wish that things never happened this way. And yet, Im glad they did. Its as if Im torn. I love him. And i hate him. And I wish he just didnt exist.