God DAMMIT yesterday sucked. It started off with my mom blowing me out yet again. After planning to go to Ventura a week in advance, she somehow "forgot" to tell me she had something else she had to do that day. But she got back early enough that Jordan and I could go and get the readings we've been dying to get for months. So I asked her if we could go around 5:30 or so. And she called me back and said yes we could go. So at that point we had gone from yes you can go to no you can't go today back to yes you can go. Then she heard that my brother was there and decided that she would start kissing his ass early this weekend. So she talked to him and he said he didn't even want to go to Ventura with us...he would rather stay and play his Xbox and watch TV and shit. But noooo.....she wouldn't let him. Then he started making a big deal about how Jordan was going and he didn't want to go all the way to Ventura with Jordan and blah blah blah started bitching as usual.....and my mom was like ok Jordan can only go if your brother allows her to. I was like WTF....that is soooooo fucked up. I have been waiting to do this for months now...and I planned it a week ahead so she wouldn't be able to screw shit up. And now it's all riding on whether my brother feels like being a pain in the ass or not? That is fucked up... So after like half an hour of practically begging him to let us go he finally caved and I called my mom. She said she would be there to pick us up in about 5 minutes or so. She got there around 8 to get us. So at that point we would get there around 9. Lame. But we still wanted to get the readings because it was really really important so we still went. Then we finally got there and.....he had closed early. So we drove crammed in the back of my mom's shitty little truck only for fucking Scott to close early. I'm going to KICK HIS ASS next time I see him I swear to GOD. And then my mom starts giving me crap and saying to my brother "oh your sister owes you BIG time. Like she should clean out your room for you, etc." It's like LOOK, you fucking bitch......YOU are the reason we got here so fucking late. AND you forced Steve to go. So it's your fault he's even here. And I'm sure he still hates you, you dumb whore. I mean, just because you badmouth me around him and treat me like shit and give him whatever he wants doesn't mean he's going to drop all feelings of hatred he has for you. You fucking earned it..... UUUUUGH. So last night sucked. And I can't stand my mom. It seems like it doesn't matter which parent I'm with, both of them always seem to side with my brother against me. My mom because Steve hates her and she's trying to win him back. My dad because....they're both idiots and have that idiot bond or whatever going on for them. Either way, I always get treated like shit. So now my mom is going to Ventura today and she refuses to take us. And this fucking reading means a lot to me. Like I've waited for sooooooooo long to get it. And at this point I think it's the only thing that would reassure me that my life isn't going to keep getting fucked up like it has over the last few years. It usually puts me in a better mood for a little while and suppresses my suicidal urges. But no. She feels like being a bitch and leaving me at home like she always does while she goes to the place that I've been dying to go to for months now. But if my BROTHER wanted to go then she'd be more than happy to take him along. This sucks. So I get to do basically nothing today....after yesterday sucking....I feel like just giving up. On everything. I hope she does take him with her today - at least I'd get a little peace..... Ha. Ron is here. I'm done. ------------------------------------------------------------------------- AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA the tables have TURNED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My mom just went to get the mail....and our report cards came in. I got straight A's. My brother got All F's except for one D-. YESSSSSSSS Now I am the favor-ed child lol. My mom said that my report card would be my sort of reprieve. Today she's going out to stay on the yacht thing that Ron's thinking of buying. So they're staying on it overnight. Tomorrow I think they were planning on going bike riding with Steve on the beach. And she said that she would take me and Jordan along and we could go to Main Street. And get readings. Yessssssss...... Thank GOD for the fact that I worked my ass off this last semester. Yay I'm happy now.......*bounces*