Today has not been good so far. In fact it seems like every day has been not so good lately...like it's a normal thing now. For every day to suck. God I'm getting tired of this... My mom and I had a fight earlier. She wants me to be online less. I explained to them that I don't go to the same school as my friends anymore or anything so this was basically my only way of communicating. But I lost... She said I'm only allowed to be online between the hours of 6 and 9 p.m. So my life is even more limited. Sigh... I have testing tomorrow. I don't really care so much...mostly I just don't want to go back to that school. I miss Saugus where I could see my friends every day. Even if I had to go early. I don't care. I just hate it here... People keep telling me that I look like I should act or something. I mean they say that I look like I should be an actress. I wasn't aware that I looked like one but okay...I guess that's not a particularly bad thing. Crystal started talking to me and I guess that Redskin kid told her that I hated her or something? Which I have no reason to hate her so I don't. I mean I talk to her and stuff so it's fine. But I guess she and (I always forget his name...oh. Joe.)......she and Joe were going to ask Theron if he wanted to go do something with them or something...I'm not exactly sure about that part. But Joe was like oh well we can't because Theron's girlfriend hates you. And she was like what...? She talks to me all the time in class... And then she started talking about how we have a "past" and I was like wait...what? Apparently everybody thinks that I went out with this guy Ray (which I never did, he and I were just friends) and that he left me for Crystal. I...would never date Ray. He's like...a total manwhore. And this was all at La Mesa. I didn't even really realize that she went to La Mesa. Or she dated Ray. But then Ray dated so many girls I lost track......but yeah. She thought I hated her because of that. Which was way off...lol. Oh well. I'm really sick of my life. I want a different one. But I don't think anyone would be willing to trade... In fact I feel like I'm slowly phasing out of existence. Which I kinda am... I feel like screaming, but I don't think that's a great idea considering that Ron and my mom are in the next room. Dammit. Ugh. Today needs to end.