So tomorrow is my birthday...unless of course I have been lied to all these years. I may in reality be 28 years old and not know it. Or 12. And born in March. Oh dear god... But for some reason I am really truly not excited about my birthday. I mean I haven't been for a few years now. My mom keeps bugging me because I didn't want to go do something tomorrow night with like...my entire family. Is that unusual? My family is HUMILIATING. And my mom wonders why I don't want to go out in public with them...ha. I mean...blech. I don't even want to go into detail. But she planned (without asking me first) for us all to go out to dinner tomorrow night. She didn't even ask me what I wanted to do. I assure you...I would not have chosen to go out to dinner with them, though. And my mom wants to bring Ron, her boyfriend. And my dad would be there. Actually last night my dad started getting all dramatic about Ron being there. He was like...oh then if HE'S gonna be there, I don't want to go. Then he said he didn't want to go anyway because my mom's family would be there and they don't exactly get along. And I was going to bring Jordan. Duh. But as soon as I brought up the fact that she would go my brother started getting all stupid and complained for like an hour. Finally I was like...Steve. What makes you think YOU'RE going? He shut up. Ha. But now I guess my dad isn't going with us tomorrow night. He said he would do something with me Friday night, instead. Oh well...I don't mind. My birthday really doesn't matter to me anyway. My god it's still cold. I just turned the heater on, too... Today was lame. First arguing this morning in the car with my mom about me not wanting to do anything for my birthday and her controlling everything without asking me. Then Gapper (need I say more?). Then Math...always boring. But then I had brunch. And Theron wasn't there today so I was totally bored out of my mind. Then English, where I didn't do my essay or read..heh heh. Then Psychology, where I didn't do my presentation project. But then I'm failing that class so even if I did it it wouldn't make a difference. Then lunch. Jordan ditched me, of course. I'm guessing she went to go get food and a ride home...not surprised. And of course Theron wasn't there, as I said. But I got to hang out with Crapet and...Kenny. And others. I talked to Tony too. But I hardly ever talk to them anymore so it was cool. Then there were these genius kids in my French class. It was insane...they were training for this thing that they have. A competition thingy I guess...it's hard to explain. But they had these questions they were looking at and answering and most of them had like...huge scientific words that I didn't understand. They made me feel inferior lol. It was craziness. There weren't any girls there, either. Just nerdy guys. Oh well. Then I went to History and it was boring. We have to make 98 flashcards in the next two days. I..don't think I can? I can't concentrate for that long of a time on something soooo boring. And people will be talking to me. And I'll be blasting my Hilary Duff on my iPod for sure. Ha. So yea...distractions. Should be interesting. Blah. Not looking forward to tomorrow. I hate having tons of people pay that much attention to me. Especially my family. My god...the horror. Sigh...today has not been good. The only reason I managed to get online is because my mom went to her boyfriend's house to do something. So I have freedom. But for how long? Hmm...