I don't understand it...I feel sad for some reason. I just got home, too. Nothing necessarily bad happened today, so I have no idea...I'm just lame I suppose... Stupid laptop ran out of battery-ness. My mom unplugged the power cord and I didn't even notice...I don't understand why she does these things. So I had to figure out how to plug everything back in so it all worked together and stuff...stressful. Especially because I had to unplug the TV and my dad was yelling at me to turn it the fuck back on and yea...go figure. Jordan and Theron and I went to Barnes & Noble today after school. It was much better than going home and doing nothing at least...I got Starbucks. Yay. Then we looked at different books and then later listened to music to drown out the bad music they were playing throughout the store. Then Theron and I went to look for something to get his mom for her birthday, which was interesting considering he had only what...five dollars? So we had to look for something cheap-ish but like...not crappy. Luckily there was an entire section that was on like...sale. So it wasn't that hard, actually. He found a book, though. Then his mom came and brought us food and she came over to where Jordan and I were sitting and talked to us a little bit. It was really weird...I saw her coming over to where we were sitting and I kinda knew it was Theron's mom...I've never met her before? I dunno...weird. She seemed really nice though... But later Jordan was wanting to go home so I called my motha and she said for me to call my father so I did and he picked us up...I'm just glad he didn't have like a metric ton of shit in the back of his car this time like he usually does. Thank god...that is sooo embarrassing when he does that. Oh. Two days until my birthday. I totally don't care that much about it. In fact, I didn't even really remember it was in two days until Matt told me. Matt has the same birthday as me, after all...way coolness. But I don't even get to choose what I want to do for my own fucking birthday. My mom just randomly told me yesterday that The Whole Family was going out to dinner at Grand Panda and her boyfriend was going too and I didn't really have a choice about whether we went or not. I don't want to do anything with my family...they're embarrassing. Truly. My grandmother is...disgusting. To say the least. I mean especially around food...it's gross. And my idiotic pot-smoking uncle will be there...gah. And possibly his children, which annoy the living fuck out of me. And my dad will be there at the same time as my mom's new boyfriend. Awkward. I just don't want to deal with it. Not looking forward to it. But who knows? Maybe my mom will come to her senses and realize that, after all, it is MY birthday and I should be able to have SOME say about the events that occur that day. But who knows...I just don't want to think about it. But now I randomly feel sad for some reason. Like...we went and did something today after school. That's a good thing. But now I just feel...empty for some reason. It makes no sense...and it's not like that's unusual. My life hasn't changed in the last 24 hours or anything. Nothing bad happened. I just feel depressed. Sigh... I should get offline before my mom walks in and like freaks out or something. I just feel...blah. But how do I feel blah if I have no emotion? I don't understand...