I go through my life pushing aside the unnecessary things. I try to only feel when I absolutely have to. You know, it's not so bad. I feel like I have become stripped down, efficient, a sleek shark swimming through the crowd. I feel the air slipping past my sleek new skin and understand myself to be invisible. and I relish it. today, though, i was seen, if only for a second, if only by myself. today, i realized just how sad about all of this I still am. and how sad i could become.