I dont know why I say things sometimes. It actually feels like I type that a lot here, but I guess it is a reoccuring question. Sometimes he gets me in a comfort zone and things I am thinking pop out and I say to myself, shit, that was a dumb thing to say because I know he worries. I know he thinks about it and I am not worried to think that he will always choose her over me. I don't want him to ever have to make that choice--that is a foolish, selfish thing to want. I want him to be happy, healthy, and at peace, and sometimes the things I say belie that fact, because I always seem to be complaining. I will do better about not presenting my problems at his doorstep, I swear. It is not my place.