My left top front tooth is sensitive to cold. I hate it. And it just started today. I woke up at noon today. And then mom hauled me out of bed and to the barn. Where I froze some, and rode Matthew. Then I rode Oreo. Then I rode Riley. Then I went over to Autumn Chase and talked to Jason about riding Lavance tomorrow. So, that's my special day so far. We were supposed to go to the bookstore, but I didn't want to go. I want to type Tiaj, and get all the words in my head on paper, but every time i sit down to do so i get bored. this makes me mad. Lavance is pretty. Huge, 17 hand dutch warmblood import, recently from Germany. Nine year old mare. She's so beautiful. Thick, muscular neck, deep girth, wide chest powerful haunches and strong legs. Her eyes are large, and dark, and kind. I'm riding her for the first time tomorrow. Riley is my baby. We gallop every day, sunny or frigid. I go bareback, because I like how we keep each other warm and it's easier to stay on that way, anyways. SOmetimes I go without a bridle, too. He doesn't need one. We'll stand in the clearing and he'll graze, and I'll lie back on his haunches and stare at the sky and wish I could be here forever. Matthew watched as Riley came to me in the pasture today, chewing on a twig that stuck up odd angles around his nose and made him look very silly. I fed Riley a carrot and then Matthew came. He's very materialistic. But you can't blame him. He's only a baby. Man. I love my slippers. My toes are so toasty. --- Found on the diary of blueroze: "The Reason" someday i'll know someday i will show the secrets within my secrets my sins my soul is a cage what is hidden far behind the reaches of the normal dont exist here im sure there are reasons reasons i forget to run from guns reasons im filled with hate and passion that will never abate the secret that came through these doors the same that has started wars the secret of who i adore the secret of what killed me the secret of what he did to me the reason of my hidden bite the reason i dont turn in fright the reason i dare not stay with you tonight the reason i can never do what i wish to do with you the reason i will run from thee when you still love me the reason i cannot stand the night the reason i embrace the light the reason of unequaled might the cause of my pain without release the reason thatnow lies beneath all that you know all all that i show the reason i cannot love you the reason i will hurt you the reason i will leave you the reasons that will kill you and the reasons that i hate you for doing this to me for giving you the keys that unlock my soul the secret of how i subsist unable to resist the call of the earth's soul the secret of my life the invisible aching knife that eats away at me that is all i shall ever be --- ....