I sometimes have thoughts that maybe I am paranoid. Am I paranoid? I always say, the first thing I say, is "they hate me" "they loathe me" "they don't like me" but hey, is it true? I don't know. I don't like it when people don't like me. I guess I don't really make it easy for people to like me in the first place. I remind myself of a person with a terrible social disorder. I can see what's wrong, I recognize it and despise it, but I can't fix it. When it comes down to it, I still make fun and laugh and hate. I still make your skin want to crawl. Where did this come from...?