My mom gave me a letter this morning and when i read it it only made me cry. I cried in my first three classes, when after, i walked Dallan to his class and that made me feel really good then in lunch i felt like i was just being a part of the wall, or a side note and unimportant but Emily helped with that and got me hppier. Then Christa just kinda radiates happy things and by the time i was in ARt i was feeling much better...too bad it didn't last and all day since i was crying my contacts fogged up. I came home and mom tells me that we need to talk. I highly doubt that just sitting at the same table counts as talking... but she did say that i had lost her trust, and that i should keep a log of how i spend my time. Then when i got up and laid on the couch. she told me that she was tired of me putting her last then promptly gave me housework to do. I had already told her of my plan for the afternoon...homework...which has a due date. Last time i checked the cleaniness of the dinning room floor didn't have a "Must be done" sign on it. Last night i was having a bit of a emotional breakdown and was crying on stage and Sara tried to calm me down, but i just wanted to keep crying and as soon as i got off stage, i tracked down my cell and called Dallan. He calmed me down and i was okay until i went home and mom got on me. I ended up yelling at her and pushed away my dad when he tried to give me a hug. My room is a mess. I'm sure that i'm failing some of my classes. I can't breath or even concentrate on things. I want to be with Dallan but he just isn't avalible yet. I'm just so stressed right now. I want to be doing art, but i can't yet. and that makes me sad. My sister come over tonight and my mom told her what my mom's side is and then my sister convinced me that she should know my side as well and i just gave up and told her of my stresses and then she lectured me on how when Darrell and Her did this Mom was fine. Before she left she asked me for a hug and i almost didn't give her one. she gets so sick of crying.... take away the spotlight...i don't want to feel alone.