i'm feeling better now but i cried a few more times today. I told Austin how i felt after what he said and he was really sorry and tried to help but i just didn't want to. My feet hurt so much. dancing and walking, my toes look sort of like someone took a file to my feet. But i'll go dancing tomorrow morning and i might not get to do any more all christmas break. I brought home one project and i have a few other art projects. i need to decide on a surrealism piece so i can work on it. I want to borrow Take the Lead and actually watch Step Up so i can mimick some of their moves to get me motivated for some more routine stuff. I wish i had taken more Ballet when i was younger. think i could get lessons now? I want to dance everything! Belly dancing.. Salsa, Ballet, Break dance, (i'll have to ask Kurt for a favor one of these days) i just want to do it all! Ryker and I went swimming in this hot tub at Jay's. it was lots of fun and so relaxing. I love the water that's such a huge stress reliever. and there's not much running water in the winter. He failed to tell me it was outside though. as much fun as it was to watch the steam coming off the bodies of people climbing out it was cold when we finally got out. Then Ryker so calmly happened to lock his keys in the truck so i watched part of the Grinch with Jay's family. Reily is so cute. Bedtime