my first performance was yesterday, but i wasn't very happy in the first place, and i messed up alot and i just don't think that we did that great of a job. Valentine's day was nice. Ryker showed up with 24 roses and he drove me to work. Then i had him pick me up and later take me home. it was really good to see him. sigh*** i miss my friends. I wanted the Ballroom team to be a team. i've never really been in a team, drama was the closest i've had to that. But yesterday we decided to sit together and watch the other performers until our turn. so we all went out to the bleachers.. i sat down. Nobody sat next to me. Everyone sat behind me. I was alone.... The "team" didn't include me. I was even the first one to sit down. Then today everyone left me again at lunch. Emily, Brad, Jerry, and Jessica. They all got up and left me, and Jerry was the only one to say goodbye. this has happened all week. Either no one's there to begin with. or they leave without saying goodbye. Emily and Brad do so much together. They go on dates with other couples, they hang out with each other on a daliy basis. If we didn't work together i'd never see them. Emily doesn't come over for Lost anymore. My one time a week that i would see her is gone. I was hoping now that the show was back on that it would start up agian. that was the plan.... I've just been so alone and i hardly get to see Ryker nowadays and my best friend doesn't seem to want to do anything with me. If Ryker and Emily were on good terms then we'd at least be able to go on dates or something. Maybe i should just be alone.