I love my SitD but i'm worried about it since my comments still are coming in and i was told today that perhapes the network was crashing i might have to migrate although i don't really want to. I can't stop writing. i love this too much to Today was my parent's silver anniversary, and although i really... really want to get married like asap. i realised that i'm not ready for it. Sort of stabbed me in the side when i realised this but i really do think that i need to grow up a little. I know so little about being able to support anything, and about being responisble. Mostly i realised that if i marry someone now, would we make it to our 25th year? or 40th? or 50th? heck i don't even know if i'd make it 5 years. If i learn nothing else i want to learn how to make things last. I have to be someone that my someone needs. Ryker introduced me to Guitar Hero... Fun... but i suck, even at easy. i might take me awhile to get "addicted"...We went to see a movie but it was cut short when Aaron informed us that his girlfriend was heading to the hospital so we left early that we might be there to support/help. Aaron had a magical expirence with a dew bottle. he's keeping the parts of the bottle that are left.... it kind of expolded. But Holly should be alright I came home to find my brother's friend's car in the driveway and so i waited until they got back so i could ask My bro to move the vechile into the garage and after some talk they both said that i was a cooler little sister than the friends. It was a nice thought... but i had already gone numb for the night. Numb... that's a perfect word for this.... non feeling. I don't want to have a glare on my face all the time. I have a cousin who always looks pissed off... she scares me... i don't want to look like that. Ryker Poked me for having a vacant stare and i replied "better a vacant stare than a glare" but i guess he didn't hear me right i suppose i don't articulate very well... wasn't the first time that he asked me to repeat something today and i didn't want to try to say it again. Oh... i'm going to make up a form of dance for the Bird and the worm song.... mix of sexy and creepy...