i've calmed down from my last entry but i'll write in privte for a while. Latly Ryker and i have been just hanging out and i love it. I like eating banana pancakes and playing with the kitties or just watching music videos on the computer. Saturday wasn't so great with Ballroom i got sick of the team and i just wanted to get it done but some people seem to have problems with asking others and forgetting that it's not ballet. I took a five hour nap when i got home and after a while on the piano (i've been playing more of late) i borrowed the car and went shopping. I bought a shirt, a journal to finally start this whole transporting entries thing, a belt, and a new ring to replace the one i lost. i hope i don't leave this one everywhere. Kurt wanted to hang out but i really wasn't interested. i just took a bit of my day for myself in a way i hadn't done in a while. Chase called about his farewell gave me directions and that's what i did Sunday. He gave a really good talk and we went to his house for food. Carson called back after he left to get my number, and Chase walked me to the truck when i left. i shook his hand for his mission and he started to protest until i hugged him for his birthday. I hugged him again for the two years he'd be gone. It was nice to see him again and then i was just fine til i read that comment that Emily pointed out to me. and I'll go private for a while