i'm not happy right now. I've cried at least 4 times today and all for stupid reasons but i don't want to eat and i'm cold. horray he said that the perfect body is 36" 24" and 35".... i don't come close. that was one cry. I didn't get look for a rock... another cry My hair isn't very nice today... one more... and i had to pay $13 for a new license... add that to the new picture i wasn't to dry eyed. I still need to go christmas shopping but lack the money because i had to pay for a new license. and i think i heard my cat barf from the other room. i'll add more of those pictures when i get back. hopefully i'll feel better later. .....I'm so scared... i've never had surgery before... Would you still love me if i had cancer? or something uncurable? Would you see me in the worst of times or will i sit alone? I fear being alone