I was told that i looked like Drew Barrymore yesterday. Francis's Dance was fun dispite all my cough attacks I went to a doctor since i couldn't breath Saturday morning. Danced for the team without my medicine so i still fell over and tried to breath inbetween sections. Went home feeling like dirt and took my medicine and took a nap until Ryker came over so i could see him for a few minutes. Haven't seen him since. then i went to Colby's Farewell thingy.. thats when i was called a Drew Look alike Woke up late for Ballroom then felt ugly, unwanted, unprepared, useless, and unloved... all day. I thought we were best friends... I thought i could do this... I thought people cared... ... at least the people that i cared about. ...Austin only made me cry by telling him and then he nearly scholed me, I don't know why i tell him anything. he won't tell me anything. Alright no more telling Austin. He's having too much fun getting Emma's legs wrapped aroung him to care about me. Sure it's only a hug... but it's disgusting and i can't be the only one who thinks so Lisa gave me a hug in Lunch which i needed so despratly. But i couldn't tell her because i couldn't talk any more. Any voice i had was lost to tears. I ran out of the Lunch room before Austin bothered me anymore. I would've been yelling but no one could hear me. i cleaned up in the bathroom. and stood in the hall for awhile. waiting for the bell. Then Creamics i got grouped with a few losers. yay.. Then in my effort to get organized for Art. i was going through a few things, and B told me that i kicked butt and that i looked really great with my hair like that. It was tied in a half with a rubber band that i found. High light of my day right there. I'm going to do laundry and go to bed... sure it's only 6:30 but i don't care.