today was a good day. i went to grandbay with bob and mikhail and met mike and corwin there. grand bay is a beautiful place, but it was soo cold. we ate bread. then went to mikhail's and had more bread and pizza and tea and meredith came over, then we went to downtown to hildegards. today was a very good day. but looking at all those books at the cafe made me think. i hate not being able to understand this existence. nothing makes sense. absolutely nothing.