two days left and life slaps me with a necessary change of heart once again. why now? i was walking away with my whole heart. it was gonna be easy. but now i feel that sense of urgency and im scared. dammit. now is not a good time to be telling me you love me. because i love you. i love you with my whole heart and yes... i am scared to lose you. but what the hell can i do about it? i cant make your decisions for you. you let that girl haunt you. shes always the elephant in the room. i hate that. you dont need that in your life. that isnt love its fear. fear of moving outside your comfort zone. let it go. its history.