life is getting stranger and stranger each day. change is in the air and its trying to change me. i dont know exactly how it happened. but all the sudden these past few weeks i havent felt myself. i was so confident in who i was and comfortable in my own skin, but something deep down inside of me is trying to change me into the ordinary person my family wants me to be. its ok. ive accepted the fact that my family will never accept me the way i am. they will love me but not for who i am. and its ok. ive been fighting my whole life to just be myself without people judging me and i will go down fighting for my right to be an individual. i will always be the underdog and thats ok too. i dont want to change. im not unhappy, i am very happy, but i want more. I need to be free. I need to go away from this small town. i need a place to rest. physically this is my hometown. but in my heart this is not my home. i do not belong here and i never have. i really would like to go somewhere where no one knows my name. im not exactly sure where im going in life. but i want to search and be assured that there is some reason behind my existence and to know that im not just an ordinary person.