i go back and re-read some of these entries and ive grown alot since i left home last year. i dont even know if im the same person anymore. i used to be so angry at being stuck and money was just a burden. everythings so weird. its like im in the space between who i was and who im supposed to be. i dont feel that sense of urgency i used to feel. i dont know. i dont know. but i gotta get a shower before work. ill update later.