where's my confidence? and where did my free mind go? the military is trying to flush it down the toilet, but no way will i let that happen. somehow i will get out of this. i cant sleep anymore, i cant concentrate, i cant stay calm, i just feel disgusting to my stomach all the time. i feel sick. i hate myself for getting myself into this situation in the first place. i thought valdosta sucked, i gotta get out of here fast. before my insides explode!!!!!!!