college starts in two weeks. im $500 shy of one semester's tuition. couldnt get pale or hope. missed it by two points. they took away alot of credits from when i transfered from a private to public highschool. sucks. but ill make it. yesterday i bought my very first surfboard. no more having to use mers madden which was a little long for me. my new one is a fatboy shortboard. beautiful and yellow. i love being out there in the ocean, i could do it all day every day and never get tired. im in love with it. its a very soulful sport. i love taking roadtrips with mer to jax. but back to valdosta, im back with josh and more in love with him than ever before. its always been there. even when we were with different people nothing changed between us. and its hard for me to use the word love. ive never used it but with family and best friends. never ever to a guy. because love is not something that should be used as casually as people use it. its something that will never get old and its meaningful everytime you say it. sometimes i wonder if maybe this was the way things were supposed to happen all along. if things are meant to be they will work out on their own. i strongly believe this. and this is the way i let it roll. the ball is rolling.