well today was a long day of lifeguarding dealing with unhappy people. i dont understand why people get so angry at things they should appreciate. its sad to see people like that, bc their missing the whole point. i made it through graduation and its been awhile. i moved out of my house and in with my grandparents as you know, its wonderful still, and theyve been helping me save my money so that i can get somewhere in life. they realize that their all i have. and they are trying to help me finish growing up, they care and take beautiful care of me. my parents wont help me get into college, not admissions not money not nothing, they seem to care less what i make of myself, and forget for so many years i took care of everything and everyone in that house. i was depended on. now im struggling to make something of myself bc my funds are little despite the amount of time i spend working and putting graduation money in the bank. sometimes it makes me feel like im alone. they help my sister, but im like a cast away. i have so many dreams of doing something great in life. something not great to everyone else, but for myself. i want to be happy. i want to make a difference in the world, i want to forget reality and money and work hard to reach those dreams. bc in the end its not about money but about happiness. one day i will travel the world and live an extrodinarry life and sit down and tell my children and grandchildren all my stories and inspire them to be what they want to be. nothing is impossible. it really is all about believing in yourself even when nobody else does.