I dont know what it is but today, like most days but feeling stronger, im soo pissed off at the fact that i am stuck here and freedom is at my fingertips, but I have no way of escape. I woke up today feeling like a fortune cookie man. I need to take a drive, I need to feel how it feels to be free again. I feel like I was meant for more than just doing what im told and folding my underwear the way they tell me. I tried talking to my mom about it, but clearly we dont have the same open mind perspective about life. It made me angry when I tried to communicate with her about how I feel she negatively debated me on it and i just hung up the phone, because until we can communicate on feelings or some sort of the same level i cant even stand to conversate about the subject, because she is so ignorant about it and all she cares about is what she thinks i should be doing with my life not what i want to do with my life and i no longer want to discuss satisfying her in everything i do. I am not my angelic sister and i am not like everyone else. when is she gonna finally catch up and accept it. im not pissed off that she doesnt understand it as much as i just wish she would be ok with me just being me and the way i am, because its not necessarily a bad thing, im not a bad kid, im just a very liberated person and i have this view on life that i guess for some people is hard to understand, i have a hard time explaining it to them but i cant help or change who i am, really i cant, its crazy, but i know im not who i am for no reason i know that the reason i exist will come along eventually and my purpose will be clear, but for now i just want to jump in my car with my middle fingers high and once again leave it all behind, not in a sense of running away but to discover new things out there. i dont like to stay in one place for too long, i dont like the familiar, i would r