im trying to leave for three months this summer. everyday i wake up and hope that something will come my way showing me the path to this great adventure ive promised myself. and it came. three months in italy as an au pair, a bonaroo festival, and moving out of my house. the next chapter in my life. it includes finding independence. the feeling of understanding and living for something you know not. traveling alone and meeting people who could complete chapters of my life. they hold different keys to doors in my brain that little by little will explain everything. im trying to open my eyes, theres alot out there waiting for me. i think theres an explanation to why i am the way i am. im really not like other girls. i like to tell myself im something special. i think theres a story to my life, but i first must invent it. i dont see myself growing up where i was born and getting married and working in a small town business. i see myself traveling and finding something deeper. something not many people get the chance to find because they are to busy being realists and not taking chances. i dont want to die a legend but i want to inspire people to live their life to the fullest. anything is possible. please just understand this.